My world of psycho's

   A wise man once said ,"Death was the greatest gift given to man", well let's agree to disagree because  I feel the greatest and purest of all gifts is pain. 

   In its raw form there is a hidden beauty in every pain, an Ironic joy behind every sorrow an intense sexual arousal  behind every depression, believe it or not one way or the other we all adore a reasonable  amount of pain, we all want to feel the seconds before a painful death or a brutal murder, we all wish we could absorb the pains of a loved one  although we feel the act might be love but the satisfaction beneath the process is what we secretly crave, most times I hurt myself, I focus on the pain, because frankly that's the only real thing I know, no one can resist an adequate amount of pain it mustn't be physical, emotional etc count as well, am not a psycho believe me but if I had the power to ease the world of all its pain and suffering, I won't because the world is ugly enough already, now imagine it without the beauty of pain!!!  So maybe just maybe am a psycho 
   I have heard all about change and how constant it is, but believe you me, without pain no change will ever be complete no matter how little, I know love is beautiful  but just like everyother thing in life it ends or seems to,  frankly am not one to believe that true love ends Bt I do believe it changes now that's the part that fascinates me, the transition point between love and pure hate ,only pain in its raw and purest  form can cause this immense transformation, there is no stopping  it, there must be a change if enough pain is applied, even God himself  had to allow his only son suffer through the most intense and raw form of pain ever recorded in history for the change of heart to occur ..
      Do you know my best part of the passion of Christ, it was when after he had been flogged and the blood and sweat allowed to dry sticking his clothing to his open wound, but almost immediately the die was cast for his clothes, it was ripped out reopening  already almost dried wounds allowing fresh blood to gush out once more now that must have been intense
  Well I believe  each time I sin I cause him such pain and perhaps more, so I might be psycho but you are worse cause even after reading this I bet you, you will intentionally sin some more repent, change your ways or welcome to my world of psychos!!!.